More than just ham

Ok, I eat more than just ham..just to let you guys know. In other words, I love other things in life besides 'hamming' it up for the camera. I just don't talk about it too much because maybe it's personal to me, and I'm not ready to share it with the world to abuse or simply know about. How ironic, huh? That I can show my 'goods', but not share thoughts with all of you. haha.

And, just because I have an adult site, doesn't mean that is ALL I do and have ever been inspired to do in my lifetime. Before I get people pissed off, this is NOTHING against strippers, pornstars, or anyone else doing some sort of job that people feel negatively about. Hey, people think being a restaurant server as their 'real job' is lame, but that happens to be the one job you are able to make a living at without a degree or 9-5 status. Believe me, it's true, I've worked in them before to see how much tips these guys make. ..that would put strippers above them in tips though. WAY on top!

Someone (who is reading this now, hehe) sent me an email asking if I will 'get a real job'. I know him, and I'm sure he was kidding, or not? Well, this isn't in defense of his comment, but it is for all guys who think that all nekkid chicks on the Net don't do anything else but get nekkid! Alright, for some, maybe it is, but remember, the adult industry is a business (that our government is trying to break b/c there is SO much money going into it, and they can't get their own dirty hands on it) and we act as fantasies and exhibitoinists that don't mind showing our personal shtuff to the world! Even if a stripper or pornstar makes their living off getting nekkid, they still have other hobbies, and maybe even GOALS in life. A pornstar I know happens to be VERY good at what she does and knows the industry inside and out, and I honor her for that. So, with that said, I apoligize if I let the hopes down of anyone's fantasy girl. Hehe.

Only number 2

FINALLY, another post. My site is down because there are hackers or haters..same thing, trying to throw too many hits at my site, so that no one is able to look at it. Why me? I don't even have a HUGE fan base to even make a dent on the www. GEesh.

So, I am on KEEN.com right now, but no calls are coming through. It's my fault though b/c I don't have a regular schedule on it. If anyone would like to chat with me, then please let me know. The best time for me is at night PST.

Lately, I am feeling bored with myself. Like I can't get anything done. I have actually been to a therapist who said I was borderline ADD! Then, all my friends told me that everyone has a little ADD in them. Sobeit. I never took any meds b/c since I never really did drugs (only cocaine and marijuana), I couldn't relate to a 'pill' that is supposed to make me feel better, AND on top of that, take the meds everyday? How will I react once I'm off the pills? Plus, when I had my baby, I didn't want to be on any medication. Well, that is my mood right now. My goal is to crawl out of my boredom. Have a great weekend!